One year ago today, I went to a routine doctor's appointment three weeks prior to my due date. I happily found out at this appointment that I was 5 cm dilated. That night, we went shopping, had dinner, and enjoyed our last night as a childless couple.
The following night our beautiful boy was born. It was the hardest happiest day of my life. It was the day that everything changed.
I became a mother.
Last night I held Bubba in my arms after he fell asleep on me. For over an hour I just held him and thought about how thankful I am for him. I stared at him and I cried. I thought about how this year has been the happiest of my life. I have never felt more fulfilled.
I am so thankful that Heavenly Father sent me this beautiful child to love, to nurture, and to teach. He brings me more joy than I ever could've imagined. I am so impressed with him, so amazed. I forget that he actually came from my body. It's humbling. The love I feel for him is overwhelming. I sometimes wonder how Heavenly Father could love even me, and He quickly reminds me of the love I have for Landon, and it gives me just glimpse of what He feels for all His children. Parenthood is divine. How blessed we are.
Happy Birthday, Landon James. I love you.