Where Does the Time Go?

One year ago today, my sweet Harper was born! Seriously, where does the time go? It does not feel like it's been a whole year since I brought Harper David into the world. That was such a fun day, despite having the Swine flu and having my entrithethical wear out thirty minutes before I'd have to push.

He was healthy, strong, and beautiful. I was instantly in love, but at the same time felt guilty. I felt like I was betraying Landon. I felt like I was cheating on my 18 month old by loving this other baby. Poor Landon was home with the swine flu, without me to take care of him, and I was overwhelmed with guilt.

When he and Anthony came to get us from the hospital, I had Anthony switch me places. I wanted him in the room with Harper, so I could greet Landon alone, and then introduce him to his brother. I walked into the hall where Landon was in his stroller. Right away, I could tell he was not happy. He turned his head to the side to avoid even looking at me. I hugged him and kissed him, and still he refused to respond. I tried to contain myself, as nurses were watching on, but I could not hold back tears. I had been gone for three days when Landon needed me. And, now he would know we had another baby! I felt ridiculous for crying, and I don't know if it was my postpartum hormones, but I felt like the nurses thought I was a horrible mother, too.

Harper screamed most of the way home, and Landon just stared at him, pointed and said, "baby?" a couple of times. By the time we got back, Harper was asleep. Landon lifted the blanket that covered the carseat, and peered in at his brother. He was very curious, and had forgotten about being mad at me (I had hoped).

We took him out, and let Landon hold him. Harper was screaming at that point, and Landon was just so excited. It was really cute. We explained that this was his baby, and from that moment on that is how Landon has treated Harper (most of the time).

I was terribly worried that Landon would be jealous of Harper, but I realized that's not what I would have to worry about.

Harper is jealous of Landon. If I'm playing ball with Landon, hugging him, or holding him on my lap, Harper gets jealous. He crawls, cruises, or toddles over and tries to push his way on my lap while pushing Landon off. He's very territorial of me, and Landon, not so much.

Harper has been such a blessing and sweet addition to our little family. We all love him so much! This past year has been such a crazy, fun ride with two boys, and I really would not have it any other way.

Happy First Birthday Harper!!!

Harper Birthday to You (Almost)

‎"The tiny fingerprints that show up on almost every newly cleaned surface, the toys scattered about the house, the piles and piles of laundry to be tackled will disappear all too soon and that you will—to your surprise—miss them profoundly... Find joy in the journey-- now." -President Thomas S. Monson

Harper is going to be one in less than two weeks. It goes by so much faster with the second baby. I feel guilty that I had time to blog about Landon like once a week as a baby, and poor Harper hasn't had nearly as many posts or pictures.

I can't believe I survived almost a whole year with two boys. These two babies are crazy active. If you don't believe me, come take a look at my living room right now. Landon is stuck inside a toy bucket and laughing his head off. Harper is trying to join him in the bucket, but was denied, so he's bawling. Now, walking to Momma, now biting my shoulder as I type. Ouch. Seriously.

Really though, Harper has been such a fun baby (except those first couple of months when he stayed awake until 3 am every morning). That was not fun. That was torture. Literally.

Harp is so squishy and snuggly. I love when I scoop him up, and he gives me a squeeze while resting his sweet little head on my shoulder.I could just eat him up. He's pretty laid back, but lately he insists I carry him on my hip like a king all day. Sunday morning I had him in one arm and I blow dried my hair with the other. Did I mention he's at least 25 pounds?

His favorite foods are bananas, cream of wheat, jello, corn, applesauce, and cheese. I think his proudest moment was pulling Landon to the floor by his hair and pinning him on the ground for a good five minutes. It was a long time coming.

Fall or Nothing

Incorporating a Summer piece (shirt) into a Fall ensemble.

by Kali

I love Fall fashion!

Fall or Nothing by Kali Matthews featuring a silk skirt